hannah’s blog

 One of the biggest challenges I’m facing rite now is the absence of my brother. As most of you know as of about a month ago I’m now an only chilid. I guess I was  in denile that my brother was leaving for the longest time because I didn’t want him to go. Isaac (my brother) and I have been through so many obstacles in life some good some bad, for us our relationship has been one of the BUMPIEST roller coasters you could have ever imagined. Isaac has been my enemy,my best friend,my guardian,my blackmaler,my hero,and my nightmare, but everyday at the end of it  no matter what happens I love him. He has tought me so many life lessons like when you feel as if the world is crumbling down at your feet, hold on to yourself and try not to show your hurt because so many people want to see you cry. Isaac is a marvelous person, he comes off cocky and condseaded at times but it’s a cover up you have to get to know him. Infact I think he doesn’t think enough of himself. He has helped me through some dark phases of my life and I owe him so many thank you’s we’ve all lost track. I guess I’m writting this because tonight after dinner I was walking to my room to get some homework done and his door was open and everything was where he left it and everynight after dinner me and him would talk. Talk about whatevar came to mind, school,movies,friends,parties,making fun of mom and dad. I just miss him alot. It’s like there’s this big empty space in my heart were he used to be. I know he just moved to another country but I miss his appearance in the household. I miss coming home from softball and we would be so exhausted yet we would practice together when we got home and talk. Its the little things I miss. There used to be so many flaws I hated about my brother, but now I cant remeber anything I hated about him. I rember his cheery smile, his halarious jokes and his caring nature. Not once did he ever belittle my ideas on whatevar I wanted to do, whether it be running on stress fracture or jumping on the trampoline with eggs something stupid like that he always, always encouraged me to go for my dreams. I wish I was more like him, forgives and forgets,cares for everything,and laughs for no reason. Just a happy go lucky guy, I miss him so much. You know I’m reallly glad he’s took his own advice and went to accomplish his dreams but Im so sad he had to do it now. I miss him soo insanley much. So I was going to go right in a journal like I normally do, then I rembered…my blog. So heres a little poem about this. We’ve known eachoter for o so many years  time has gone by way to fast. It’s  hard to say good bie. I never wanted you to go always. I always needed you to know that I’m here for you like you were for me you are my angel.  You look out for me when I’m gona do wrong.  I’m scared of disapointing you becasue I know how much I mean to you. Sometimes you say im discrace but really sometimes thats how I feel to the race ,sometimes you say I’m dumb, sometimes you make me cry, but underneath it all your my angle in disquise as my brother. You watch so I do right, you make sure I’m okay even if at the end of the day your the one who needs the shoulder.  You fake smiles so you look tougher than you really are.  I know your always here for me even though your 30 thousand miles far. You watch for me, you cheer from me, you teach me sometimes preech me {sad ur gone} I need you to know how much you mean to me, and I appreaciate everything you have been to me  you have been to me. You have been my friend, my enemy you are my angel in disquise as my brother, and   forever will you be.    Ok so that’s it. This is my first semi deep post to you guys. I know it’s not as good as some of my former poetry but I think if you give me a bit more time I open up a bit more.HOPE YOU ENJOY!   

Today in Language Arts class we talked about the aspect of “what is writting?” We said writting is broken up into parts one part communication one part exspression one part reflection and one part thinking. Mr. Raisdana says and I have to agree with this that in poetry no word is accidental every word is purposed and is there for a reason. You can never say you dont get a peom becasue then your just being lazy and not looking at the words. Everyone can understand poetry. Maybe the author of the poem understands the peom in a different way then you do. Everyone has there own perception but you can never say that you dont get poetry. Today I leanred that the Polionic complex is when a person feels that the more things you have the bigger person you are. In class I sort of just maybe zoned out a little and got preocupied with my thoughts. I thought about my MRI that I had to do in 20 minutes. I started thinking about what happens if my ankles not ok? What happens if I have to give up softball just like I did soccer? What happens if I let my team, friends and family down? Then another thought came into my mind. Im sitting here about to have an MRI at one of the top hospitals and I’m thinking about whats going to happen to me, and there are probally a couple thousand people out there who have the same exact problem but cant afford to go to a doctor so there living in pain with no idea why ,how or what happened to them. Then I started to feel really guilty, so I changed my train of thought. Today in class I wanted to say that in the poem ‘Thoughts from Within” I strongly agreed with the the author was saying or with what I felt the author was saying. When the author said ” this government was founded by, of, and for the people but everybody feels it like a giant open sore they don’t represent us anymore and blaming the the president for the country’s woes is like yelling at puppet for the way it sings Who’s the man behind the curtain pulling the strings?” At first I dint quite grasp what the author was saying but then after I re read it and sorted through the extra words I got it. I think its saying this government was chosen by the people and for the people which is us, but everybody feels the pain of the country’s, poverty and problems and blamming the president isn’t right because he is one man but we all make a difference and the people behind the president who help influence his motions is the people. So we cant blame him. We can only blame ourselves. Thats what I wanted to say in class.

Hey.I got this pic from here.
This is my favorite Baseball player. He plays for the Boston Red Sox

My goals!

The thing I would like to accomplish during this blogging project is  to learn how to blog and different ways of expressing myself through writing.

The thing I would like to see here in June is all my writing assignments and more. I am working towards being a better writer and to become better at using technology. Right now I envision this project as a difficult one because I’m not good with technology and I see it as plain and hard because it is just getting started.