hannah’s blog

My life is like a 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle. It’s hard to understand, gets put together slowy,and falls apart easily. Sometimes you just want to pick it up and throw it away, but you can never give up hope that it will come out amazing.I don’t know how much longer I’m going to be able to take.. All lies I ve told and smiles I’ve faked. I’m sick of pretending..tired of trying to be something I’m not. I just want to be me but everytime I try I get pushed down.   I feel like I’m trapped. In a dark box with no way of escaping. The things that make me happy..arent here..no one seems to get that i Just wana go..not die…but move..i wana play sports..i wana be with my brother and family im sick of it here. Nothing seems to go my way..People judge by pre concieved notions. Grow up! Stop backstabbing people becasue there different than you..no one caress!!! if they do  so what there not  the kinda people you want to surround yourself by. Ugh..It makes me wonder what this world is coming to.. Sometimes you put a piece of the puzzle in and it doesnt fit…well thats how i feel. Lost,confused,sometimes even dumb just becasue im different. All this pressure well its not really peer pressure or pressure from teachers and family its kinda searching and wanting to be yourself pressure.. and if i could avoid it i would but i cant so im stuck with it.. it feels liek that worlds weight is on my shoulders and an earthquake is starting to happen and at any second I could snap,change,forget, who i am, my beliefs,my standards,my identity. I cant forget what I belive in and the type of person I want to be…but it seems so hard to stay true to who you are…I know though that if i take life one step at a time.. ill come out ok..just like a puzzle one peice at a time..