hannah’s blog

hey you guys, this is my letter of application to be admitted into NJHS, thought a few of you would be intreseted.

Hey, my name is Hannah Elizabeth Le Blanc. I really don’t know what I can say to make you accept me into NJHS. But I do know why you should. You should because I believe in myself, and I believe in the good of mankind. I started to believe in myself the day my brother told me he believed in me. The sad thing was I didn’t realize that I had faith in myself all along; he was just provided the motivational push that I needed. I can do what I used to think was the impossible. For example, getting a perfect score on a Spanish quiz, or sticking up for people when others talk poorly about them behind their back. I had a great teacher who once asked me “What is the world coming to? How can you help humanity? What are you doing to make a difference?” That’s when it ht me, I want to make a difference, I want to be the difference I want to give back to society, I want to be a part of something bigger and better then a social clique, and I know NJHS is the perfect opportunity.

 I believe a leader is someone who is trustworthy, kind, caring, knows what’s best for the people and is going to strive for their team or group to be the best that can help everyone along the way. I feel I’m a leader on the sports field because I encourage my teammates. I expect everyone to give their best effort and I respect every player on my team for their different strengths and qualities. I also feel I possess leadership qualities around the school for example being a peer mediator you must be trusted by your fellow peers. Which means you can’t go around gossiping, I also feel that you must be caring to help others with their problems, and you must always remember you’re there to help them help themselves. You can’t solve their problems for them. But you can help and guide them to solve their issues peacefully. Being a peer mediator has taught me how to solve my own problems in peaceful, simple, and respectful ways.

I enjoying giving back to the community because it has given me so much. I like to take on challenges whether it be academically or sports wise, I like to do the unexpected. I believe I serve my community. I tutored this one really sweet elementary student and at first I was really upset I wasn’t getting paid but after our first session the joy on his face after learning a few new words, was  more than enough for me and made the whole experience worth while. I also believe I serve my community because I help around the school like I helped with the elementary yearbook sales and I give tours to new students. I also like to give back to the teachers who have taught me so much, for example I wrote an article in the Sahifa trying to raise money to buy a brick in honor of my 5^th grade math teacher and her late husband who recently passed away. So far I have enough money for one brick, right now I’m working on getting a second.  Not only do I help around my community I help around other communities. During my spring break I went to Thailand and worked on a Habitat for Humanities project and I can honestly say that was the best experience of my life. I was working on a site with a bunch of people I had never met before but all these people were so embracing and so kind, they all wanted to make a significant difference. That day working on site I had a blast, this blast of hope that people care, and maybe one day, everyone will.

I have to say the other paragraphs were quite difficult, but I think this one will be easy because I have character. This year has been the hardest year of my life and I feel I have handled each of these curveballs quite well. For instance I love soccer, soccer is my passion and I worked really hard to make cuts, and I made them.  I was ecstatic but who knew one bad slide tackle could take you out for an entire six months. To me it felt like part of my heart had been ripped out, everything I worked for stripped right from underneath me but I held it together, I wasn’t going to let anyone think that I wasn’t strong enough to deal with this because I had faith everything was going to be ok. The one person who helped me accept the fact I couldn’t play soccer was my brother. But he moved a few months later. Him leaving has saddened me deeply, and I didn’t think I was going to be able to survive, but I kept hauling and I kept smiling even though underneath, it all was hurt, and sadness, that was unbearable. My brother has been there for me when it felt like the world was against me; his guidance, and wisdom have helped mold me into the person I am today. Letting him go was the hardest most painful thing I have ever had to do in my life.   But luckily I had my friends, my best friend to comfort me and be there for me and tell me everything was going to be ok, she was the best friend I had ever had, but then she went through a rough patch. I tried to help her, and she thought t I was trying to hurt her. She told a few people her side of the story, which made me look like the bad guy. I was surrounded by six girls screaming, swearing, yelling and threatening me. What they didn’t even understand was I just didn’t want my friend to get hurt I was protecting her. I was scared when all those girls charged up to me angrily, but I didn’t run away, I listened to their banter as a tear rolled down my cheek I thought to myself my intention was to help her. I would never purposely hurt her. I was mad at myself I let her down, I lost her trust, and was being yelled at and I just wondered why? All of them were my friends. They know I’m better than the person they heard about. I’m not going to lie, and say it didn’t hurt when they were yelling at me, because it did I can’t even begin to explain the pain I was feeling and the thoughts flying through my head. I was so scared that all my friendships were going down the drain; I had never heard such negative words said so publicly before. After they were done, I just said, “you heard one side, maybe you should have heard mine. You know I’m a better person then what you’ve heard,” I walked off and didn’t look back. Each one of those girls have apologized and I still maintain a friendship with each one of them. But my best friend that’s a different story. We don’t talk anymore, not even a simple hello, and it hurts like crazy, but I hold my head up because she would love to see me fall. Even to this day I fake a smile to make it through some days. I like to be the person that brightens days even if I’m having a horrible one myself; I’d rather it be me than you. That’s just the way I am. I feel I’ve had a lot of hurt in my life this year but I feel like I have risen to the occasions, and have become a better stronger person than I was before, and in the end I know everything is for the best even if it hurts right now.  I also believe I have character because even when things weren’t going my way, and I was down in the dumps, I still kept my cool, I still got up and went to school everyday, I never ever once believed that I couldn’t get through it, and I was still my cheery, bright enthusiastic self.

I demonstrate citizenship by participating in school sports, and fine arts. I help at elementary after school activities such as yoga for youngsters, beautiful ballerinas, and I helped coach boys’ soccer.  I think I demonstrate citizenship because I try my best to be kind to everyone; I always want to help and do well for someone else. I respect people’s ideas, and opinions because I myself am very opinionated (in a good way). I also love making people happy and will go out of my way to do so. That’s why I think I posses the characteristics of citizenship.

            Ok. Now I’m at the end but there’s one thing I forgot to say. I’m not perfect, but I work diligently to be the best person I can be. I want to make a difference in the community, and I would gratefully appreciate the opportunity to do so.

My life is like a 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle. It’s hard to understand, gets put together slowy,and falls apart easily. Sometimes you just want to pick it up and throw it away, but you can never give up hope that it will come out amazing.I don’t know how much longer I’m going to be able to take.. All lies I ve told and smiles I’ve faked. I’m sick of pretending..tired of trying to be something I’m not. I just want to be me but everytime I try I get pushed down.   I feel like I’m trapped. In a dark box with no way of escaping. The things that make me happy..arent here..no one seems to get that i Just wana go..not die…but move..i wana play sports..i wana be with my brother and family im sick of it here. Nothing seems to go my way..People judge by pre concieved notions. Grow up! Stop backstabbing people becasue there different than you..no one caress!!! if they do  so what there not  the kinda people you want to surround yourself by. Ugh..It makes me wonder what this world is coming to.. Sometimes you put a piece of the puzzle in and it doesnt fit…well thats how i feel. Lost,confused,sometimes even dumb just becasue im different. All this pressure well its not really peer pressure or pressure from teachers and family its kinda searching and wanting to be yourself pressure.. and if i could avoid it i would but i cant so im stuck with it.. it feels liek that worlds weight is on my shoulders and an earthquake is starting to happen and at any second I could snap,change,forget, who i am, my beliefs,my standards,my identity. I cant forget what I belive in and the type of person I want to be…but it seems so hard to stay true to who you are…I know though that if i take life one step at a time.. ill come out ok..just like a puzzle one peice at a time..  

Don’t let today’s disappointmentscast a shadow on tomorrow’s dreams.This is  a quote by an unknown author. I was bored and so I looked at some quotes on this website.  I like this quote because I was in the mood for something simple something I can relate to really fast something I didn’t have to rumage through the words to find the meaning, I know I sound lazy but sometimes you have days like this.  I really like this quote because I like the meaning. I think its saying don’t let something bad that happened today keep you from living you’r life, having fun and accomplishing you’r dreams. I think we all have bad days, actually I know we all have bad days it apart of life. Maybe it’s not apart of life we enjoy but it’s apart of life we all have to deal with and I feel everyone and anyone can relate to this quote. If we let todays or one event that was tragic or belittling get us down, its like that saying “never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game” it’s like that. If you’r scared because of one bad day, one bad event or one sad moment  you had ;and you let it keep you from going out from doing what you love because your scared it will happen again or because you’r so sad you choose not to, you’ll wake up one morning and be like I wish I would have done this differently and I could have accomplished my dreams or become a better stronger person.  I can garuntee that. That’s what I think this quote is saying. 

 One of the biggest challenges I’m facing rite now is the absence of my brother. As most of you know as of about a month ago I’m now an only chilid. I guess I was  in denile that my brother was leaving for the longest time because I didn’t want him to go. Isaac (my brother) and I have been through so many obstacles in life some good some bad, for us our relationship has been one of the BUMPIEST roller coasters you could have ever imagined. Isaac has been my enemy,my best friend,my guardian,my blackmaler,my hero,and my nightmare, but everyday at the end of it  no matter what happens I love him. He has tought me so many life lessons like when you feel as if the world is crumbling down at your feet, hold on to yourself and try not to show your hurt because so many people want to see you cry. Isaac is a marvelous person, he comes off cocky and condseaded at times but it’s a cover up you have to get to know him. Infact I think he doesn’t think enough of himself. He has helped me through some dark phases of my life and I owe him so many thank you’s we’ve all lost track. I guess I’m writting this because tonight after dinner I was walking to my room to get some homework done and his door was open and everything was where he left it and everynight after dinner me and him would talk. Talk about whatevar came to mind, school,movies,friends,parties,making fun of mom and dad. I just miss him alot. It’s like there’s this big empty space in my heart were he used to be. I know he just moved to another country but I miss his appearance in the household. I miss coming home from softball and we would be so exhausted yet we would practice together when we got home and talk. Its the little things I miss. There used to be so many flaws I hated about my brother, but now I cant remeber anything I hated about him. I rember his cheery smile, his halarious jokes and his caring nature. Not once did he ever belittle my ideas on whatevar I wanted to do, whether it be running on stress fracture or jumping on the trampoline with eggs something stupid like that he always, always encouraged me to go for my dreams. I wish I was more like him, forgives and forgets,cares for everything,and laughs for no reason. Just a happy go lucky guy, I miss him so much. You know I’m reallly glad he’s took his own advice and went to accomplish his dreams but Im so sad he had to do it now. I miss him soo insanley much. So I was going to go right in a journal like I normally do, then I rembered…my blog. So heres a little poem about this. We’ve known eachoter for o so many years  time has gone by way to fast. It’s  hard to say good bie. I never wanted you to go always. I always needed you to know that I’m here for you like you were for me you are my angel.  You look out for me when I’m gona do wrong.  I’m scared of disapointing you becasue I know how much I mean to you. Sometimes you say im discrace but really sometimes thats how I feel to the race ,sometimes you say I’m dumb, sometimes you make me cry, but underneath it all your my angle in disquise as my brother. You watch so I do right, you make sure I’m okay even if at the end of the day your the one who needs the shoulder.  You fake smiles so you look tougher than you really are.  I know your always here for me even though your 30 thousand miles far. You watch for me, you cheer from me, you teach me sometimes preech me {sad ur gone} I need you to know how much you mean to me, and I appreaciate everything you have been to me  you have been to me. You have been my friend, my enemy you are my angel in disquise as my brother, and   forever will you be.    Ok so that’s it. This is my first semi deep post to you guys. I know it’s not as good as some of my former poetry but I think if you give me a bit more time I open up a bit more.HOPE YOU ENJOY!   

Hey.I got this pic from here.
This is my favorite Baseball player. He plays for the Boston Red Sox

My goals!

The thing I would like to accomplish during this blogging project is  to learn how to blog and different ways of expressing myself through writing.

The thing I would like to see here in June is all my writing assignments and more. I am working towards being a better writer and to become better at using technology. Right now I envision this project as a difficult one because I’m not good with technology and I see it as plain and hard because it is just getting started.