Hang in there

I need to hang in there

because

I can’t stand this place

Im getting sucked into the horror

I need to get out

I FEEL LIKE IM TRAPPED

I need to be free

I cant survive my time has come

I need to leave

I forgive what you’ve longed to forgoteen

I forgot what I forgave

Left me  alone here

In this dreaded place

I call my home

I cant do this anymore

I cant fake another smile

I cant live anorher lie

There is no happiness here

None at all

I go to bed

And hope I will never wake up

Just so I don’t have to be in this place anymore

Hate

Betrayel

Stored inside

I cut

I bleed

It stings

I still feel trapped

Walls closing in my breath slowing down

I have no chance to be anything if I saty here

I need to be free

I NEED TO ACOMPLISH MY DREAMS

I keep getting sucked

Pulled

Pushed

Trampled

While im here

I cant stand this anymore

I cant get rid of my tears

My words are filled with hate

My voice growels with fear

My friends become enemies

My enemies become friends

My dream was to be happy

My dream was to be free

My dream is

A myth

My dream will never come true here

I cant fake another smile

I cant live another lie

I need to be free

I need to be living my dream

One day I will

Sometime in maybe the next life time

But one day

The tears from eyes will have dried

The cuts on my arm will be gone

The smile on my face will be real

But that day is no were near

I just need to hang in there

And have no fear,

Hey, my name is Hannah Elizabeth Le Blanc. I really don’t know what I can say to make you accept me into NJHS. But I do know why you should. You should because I believe in myself, and I believe in the good of mankind. I started to believe in myself the day my brother told me he believed in me. The sad thing was I didn’t realize that I had faith in myself all along; he was just provided the motivational push that I needed. I can do what I used to think was the impossible. For example, getting a perfect score on a Spanish quiz, or sticking up for people when others talk poorly about them behind their back. I had a great teacher who once asked me “What is the world coming to? How can you help humanity? What are you doing to make a difference?” That’s when it ht me, I want to make a difference, I want to be the difference I want to give back to society, I want to be a part of something bigger and better then a social clique, and I know NJHS is the perfect opportunity.

 I believe a leader is someone who is trustworthy, kind, caring, knows what’s best for the people and is going to strive for their team or group to be the best that can help everyone along the way. I feel I’m a leader on the sports field because I encourage my teammates. I expect everyone to give their best effort and I respect every player on my team for their different strengths and qualities. I also feel I possess leadership qualities around the school for example being a peer mediator you must be trusted by your fellow peers. Which means you can’t go around gossiping, I also feel that you must be caring to help others with their problems, and you must always remember you’re there to help them help themselves. You can’t solve their problems for them. But you can help and guide them to solve their issues peacefully. Being a peer mediator has taught me how to solve my own problems in peaceful, simple, and respectful ways.

I enjoying giving back to the community because it has given me so much. I like to take on challenges whether it be academically or sports wise, I like to do the unexpected. I believe I serve my community. I tutored this one really sweet elementary student and at first I was really upset I wasn’t getting paid but after our first session the joy on his face after learning a few new words, was  more than enough for me and made the whole experience worth while. I also believe I serve my community because I help around the school like I helped with the elementary yearbook sales and I give tours to new students. I also like to give back to the teachers who have taught me so much, for example I wrote an article in the Sahifa trying to raise money to buy a brick in honor of my 5^th grade math teacher and her late husband who recently passed away. So far I have enough money for one brick, right now I’m working on getting a second.  Not only do I help around my community I help around other communities. During my spring break I went to Thailand and worked on a Habitat for Humanities project and I can honestly say that was the best experience of my life. I was working on a site with a bunch of people I had never met before but all these people were so embracing and so kind, they all wanted to make a significant difference. That day working on site I had a blast, this blast of hope that people care, and maybe one day, everyone will.

I have to say the other paragraphs were quite difficult, but I think this one will be easy because I have character. This year has been the hardest year of my life and I feel I have handled each of these curveballs quite well. For instance I love soccer, soccer is my passion and I worked really hard to make cuts, and I made them.  I was ecstatic but who knew one bad slide tackle could take you out for an entire six months. To me it felt like part of my heart had been ripped out, everything I worked for stripped right from underneath me but I held it together, I wasn’t going to let anyone think that I wasn’t strong enough to deal with this because I had faith everything was going to be ok. The one person who helped me accept the fact I couldn’t play soccer was my brother. But he moved a few months later. Him leaving has saddened me deeply, and I didn’t think I was going to be able to survive, but I kept hauling and I kept smiling even though underneath, it all was hurt, and sadness, that was unbearable. My brother has been there for me when it felt like the world was against me; his guidance, and wisdom have helped mold me into the person I am today. Letting him go was the hardest most painful thing I have ever had to do in my life.   But luckily I had my friends, my best friend to comfort me and be there for me and tell me everything was going to be ok, she was the best friend I had ever had, but then she went through a rough patch. I tried to help her, and she thought t I was trying to hurt her. She told a few people her side of the story, which made me look like the bad guy. I was surrounded by six girls screaming, swearing, yelling and threatening me. What they didn’t even understand was I just didn’t want my friend to get hurt I was protecting her. I was scared when all those girls charged up to me angrily, but I didn’t run away, I listened to their banter as a tear rolled down my cheek I thought to myself my intention was to help her. I would never purposely hurt her. I was mad at myself I let her down, I lost her trust, and was being yelled at and I just wondered why? All of them were my friends. They know I’m better than the person they heard about. I’m not going to lie, and say it didn’t hurt when they were yelling at me, because it did I can’t even begin to explain the pain I was feeling and the thoughts flying through my head. I was so scared that all my friendships were going down the drain; I had never heard such negative words said so publicly before. After they were done, I just said, “you heard one side, maybe you should have heard mine. You know I’m a better person then what you’ve heard,” I walked off and didn’t look back. Each one of those girls have apologized and I still maintain a friendship with each one of them. But my best friend that’s a different story. We don’t talk anymore, not even a simple hello, and it hurts like crazy, but I hold my head up because she would love to see me fall. Even to this day I fake a smile to make it through some days. I like to be the person that brightens days even if I’m having a horrible one myself; I’d rather it be me than you. That’s just the way I am. I feel I’ve had a lot of hurt in my life this year but I feel like I have risen to the occasions, and have become a better stronger person than I was before, and in the end I know everything is for the best even if it hurts right now.  I also believe I have character because even when things weren’t going my way, and I was down in the dumps, I still kept my cool, I still got up and went to school everyday, I never ever once believed that I couldn’t get through it, and I was still my cheery, bright enthusiastic self.

I demonstrate citizenship by participating in school sports, and fine arts. I help at elementary after school activities such as yoga for youngsters, beautiful ballerinas, and I helped coach boys’ soccer.  I think I demonstrate citizenship because I try my best to be kind to everyone; I always want to help and do well for someone else. I respect people’s ideas, and opinions because I myself am very opinionated (in a good way). I also love making people happy and will go out of my way to do so. That’s why I think I posses the characteristics of citizenship.

            Ok. Now I’m at the end but there’s one thing I forgot to say. I’m not perfect, but I work diligently to be the best person I can be. I want to make a difference in the community, and I would gratefully appreciate the opportunity to do so.

This Week In Class

This week in class we touched base on a lot of varied ideas and topics. We talked about “going green” and we (the class) talk and say we should go green but are we really conserving our resources and saving the planet? We talked more on “what is writing?” Mr. R said that yes writing is everything we said it was. Then I blanked out and started thinking that yes writing is communicating, expressing, reflecting, and thinking but those aren’t separate parts of writing that is writing the whole part and the whole point of writing. In my opinion anyway, we right because we feel the need to let go of something, to reflect on our day, to think about the actions of others or ourselves and to communicate our opinion or feelings to wider audience. Then I started daydreaming about the new laptop my parents got me and I started thinking about what my brother was doing and how he is doing. I pretty much day dream about the same stuff every class this week the two main topics I really thought about was one: softball, I was thinking about how sore I was from practice and how the bruises from where I got hit with the ball were worth it. I started to think softball is one of the most painful sports yet I find it to be one of the best games ever played. I became really nervous so nervous for softball cuts so I had to change my train of thought. Then the second major thing I contemplated was my brother. I started thinking about how much fun we would be having if he was here and no one seems to understand what it feels like to have someone so influential in your life just up and leave just like that. I mean wow you know that song that goes “you don’t know what you got till it’s gone” that’s how I feel I didn’t know how much fun he was till he left and I wish I would have gotten to know him so much more than I did. Anyways this week in class I learned that only 23% of the students attending school actually enjoy it. That took me by surprise because I love school. I don’t like the lectures, homework, quizzes, test, textbooks, and some of the teachers teaching styles but I love school, I love coming and seeing my friends and I love the sports. Plus some of the teachers are really cool and can relate to us, which I find really important. I think if every kid can find something positive about their school day maybe just maybe it wouldn’t be as bad, but hey what do I know? I wanted to say that if they stopped paying so much money on jail cells and put that money into changing the curriculum maybe you wouldn’t need to spend that money on jails you would have less drop outs and more lawyers or doctors or people who want to make a difference. I wanted to say I feel we all want to make a difference but we just get side tracked or belittle economically so we feel we cant. We all have a loving heart some people deeper the others. I feel we all want to change the world some just feel they cant because they aren’t economically sound or working somewhere were they feel they aren’t in a position that can lead to change. I just wanted to say their wrong and anyone can make a difference if they try. Anyway that’s a quick summary on what we did this week in class.